VERY Off topic, but i want to get this out...

Discussion in 'Getting Started' started by siderod, Jun 18, 2004.

  1. siderod

    siderod Member

    Jan 30, 2004
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    VERY Off topic, please read

    Hey, as i said...VERY VERY off topic, but i want to let everyone here (Espically the AtlasRR people) know how i am.

    I lost the girl that meant everything to me, my girlfriend of 4
    months...featured here: and some more

    I know, i know, i know...i need to change the site to Ex.
    Girlfriend, but i'm to depressed to do that right now...

    After we broke up tuesday night on the phone, i went for a walk. I'm
    already kinda sick, and i went out last night (after punching the
    bathroom door while in tears) in the rain in shorts and a tee-shirt,
    and walked about a mile along the track, sat down on the rail and
    cryed. I then walked back along that mile, and tried to cross into
    my field. I knew that there was once a fence there, but it appeared
    to be gone, so i tried to cross it. BIG mistake! My left foot
    stepped ontop of the fence (chickenwire and barbed razor wire)...i
    thought it was solid ground and lifted my right foot, as it swung
    forward, my left foot sank through, cutting my leg to pieces and
    with that, my right foot caught, throwing me forward. Both ankles
    locked and cracked...i sprained both of them. I landed hard on my
    right wrist, fracturing it in 2 places. I came home in tears,
    sitting in my room, shaking and in tears...cold but the heater was
    on. I never felt so alone.

    Then wednesday, while cutting a piece of pipe, the saw slipped, the
    blade itself didn't cut me, but the brace across the top of the
    hacksaw dropped hard against my hand and pressed it against the
    vice. i got 2 razor-sharp cuts to the bone on my middle and ring
    finger of my left hand. (2 cuts on each finger)

    Normally i would know better then to place my hand as i did, but i
    just wasnt thinking.

    Now today, i'm talkin to Cassie...she still loves me like a friend, but nothing
    more. That helped, a bit. Her's and my best friend is somewhat
    fogivin me, but not entirely...hoepfully...that will change soon.

    My other best friend i havn't talked to yet...her birthday is this
    saturday...i hope she still wants me to go.

    An update as well to the status of me eatting and the
    last 50 hours, i have eaten 1 sandwich (with about 10 bucks worth of
    meat on it! 5-inchs worth of meat !)...thats ALL i've eaten, except
    for 2 spoonfuls of KD, in 50 hours! I havn't slept in 61 hours...not
    anymore then about 10 mintues of sleep when i passed out on the
    keyboard in tears at 2AM wednesday morning!

    Wow...i miss her!

    Excuse me for being so far off topic, but i wanted to say what i did. If you feel the need, delete this.
  2. Woodie

    Woodie Active Member

    Mar 23, 2001
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    Sorry to hear of your bustup with your girlfriend, and yeah..... it is a bit off-topic.

    If you are having trouble coping with it, might I suggest a visit to your local doctor. He may be able to help, or provide some advice on what to do. Also get your doctor to check out those cuts and things.

    And I know you will say "And yeah.... what would you know", and I will say this, regardless of what you think, but you will get over it.
  3. Pitchwife

    Pitchwife Dreamer

    Apr 24, 2001
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    Hi Siderod. I can comisserate with you. Many years ago I too lost someone who I was very much in love with. I won't go into the details but for the next week all I did was lay in bed, not eating or sleeping. Almost willed myself to death, literally. But I finally got over with it. And like Woodie said, you will survive this and life will go on. Also, I would stay away from tools for the time being. :)
  4. siderod

    siderod Member

    Jan 30, 2004
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    Thanks for understading guys, and thanks for not deleting this.

    Cassie and I are still friends...we probably always will be.

    And i think avoidance of tools would probably be a good idea. 1 Problem, i gotta drive a 1:8 scale steam engine in 10 days...and a 1:8 F40PH in 3 days and 6 days.....
  5. neilmunck

    neilmunck Member

    Feb 18, 2004
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    I know what you're going through. My girlfriend of 2 and a half years left me 6 weeks ago. I'm still not over her although we get on well as friends.

    It's a bummer but you've got to keep going. Don't punish yourself for what has happened.

    My comiserations,
  6. Will_annand

    Will_annand Active Member

    Jan 12, 2004
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    You are not alone siderod, most of us have been there.

    Best thing to do is take down the site, put her pictures away in box in your cupboard, remember the good times for what they were and move on,

    There will be another woman and probably a better woman come alone when you least expect it.
  7. spitfire

    spitfire Active Member

    Jul 28, 2002
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    Sorry to hear that Siderod. As the folks have said, you will get over it, in your own time, when you're ready. Sometimes, you're not ready to let go, and that's okay too - peace will come.

    And as far as being off-topic, you did mention walking down the tracks, so I think you're covered there!