I need to get this off my chest, so if you don't want to hear real-life, depressing things, stop reading now. I am not kidding here.
Ok, if you are still there, you've been warned.
I have some medical problems that are giving me trouble at work. I have depression and panic attacks that have been very bad lately. Not to mention my under active thyroid (hypothridic if I can spell it right) that adds to my depression.
Anyway, I am on medication for all three conditions, but lately it hasn't been helping as much as I would like. I am having problems with my metal focus, attention span, and controlling my outbursts. I am a 911 dispatcher, and while I've never given any problems to callers of officers on the radio, it is when I say "interesting" things when the mike is not keyed up and I am having problems emotionally that is getting me in problem.
It looks like after 5 1/2 years of employment with the county, the bosses may be considering firing me because of this. Needless to say, this is not helping my situation any. Even though I've tried to explain that this is part of my medical condition, they are not wanting to listen or beleive me. I've tried applying for other positions in the county, but to no avail.
So to make a long story short, I am in one major funk right now. I had to come home this morning because I was shaking so bad, and my direct supervisor advised me that there are people who are trying to get me axed because of all of this. Needless to say, this did not do wonders for my wife when I told her.
I have no idea what to do next. To be honest, I feel like it might be easier to just walk in front of a fast moving train....
I hate my life right now.
Michael
Ok, if you are still there, you've been warned.
I have some medical problems that are giving me trouble at work. I have depression and panic attacks that have been very bad lately. Not to mention my under active thyroid (hypothridic if I can spell it right) that adds to my depression.
Anyway, I am on medication for all three conditions, but lately it hasn't been helping as much as I would like. I am having problems with my metal focus, attention span, and controlling my outbursts. I am a 911 dispatcher, and while I've never given any problems to callers of officers on the radio, it is when I say "interesting" things when the mike is not keyed up and I am having problems emotionally that is getting me in problem.
It looks like after 5 1/2 years of employment with the county, the bosses may be considering firing me because of this. Needless to say, this is not helping my situation any. Even though I've tried to explain that this is part of my medical condition, they are not wanting to listen or beleive me. I've tried applying for other positions in the county, but to no avail.
So to make a long story short, I am in one major funk right now. I had to come home this morning because I was shaking so bad, and my direct supervisor advised me that there are people who are trying to get me axed because of all of this. Needless to say, this did not do wonders for my wife when I told her.
I have no idea what to do next. To be honest, I feel like it might be easier to just walk in front of a fast moving train....
I hate my life right now.
Michael